On Saturday night, I was in a weird mood so I decided I would go on a walk by myself...something I haven't done since about December when I got my license. It was about 8:30 but I just needed to feel myself putting distance behind me. I walked to 7/11 and bought a drink and walked back. I walked for about two hours and decided that I didn't want to be alone anymore, so I texted Zac around 10:00 and asked him if he wanted to walk with me. Just as he was saying yes, Addison texted me saying he was bored and home alone. So I told him he could come with us. So Zac and I walked to Addi's house and eventually made our way to my house. I made them brownies and we just kind of hung out. Zac went home around midnight, but Addison stayed. We have this weird relationship, Addison and I...we wrestle and fight and shove food in each other's faces and ice down each other's shirts...but we love each other and I don't know what I would do without him. We understand each other so well, without even realizing it.
     Addi and I were laying on the couch together and he just kind of looked at me, and said "What are you going to do next year when I leave?" I didn't have an answer for him...He isn't going out of state or anything...but things are going to change and I'm just not ready for that. I miss him already. It is those moments, those one in the morning wrestling matches...and the three in the morning conversations that I will miss the most...and maybe that won't all change and go away...but I know that I am going to lose some of that and it scares the crap out of me.

This year is going to be really difficult because a lot of people that I love so dearly are leaving. Addison is graduating, Jelena is going back home to Serbia, Zac is quitting drama. Those are three of my best friends, and it is really hard on me to see them leaving...

I'm keeping busy, and that helps with not feeling too sad about things...but every now and then it hits me that...things aren't going to be the same next year. Not the same at all. Life does this sometimes though...and I know the only thing I can do is try to stay good friends with all of them and write songs about what I feel. Tonight I just miss them...and they aren't even gone yet.

:):):)

Today I went and saw The Lucky One with Sabrina...it was beautiful!!! I loved it so much! And Zac Efron is perfect, I want to marry him...right now!

My fifth and sixth grade English teacher, Ms. Farthing, printed this out once and gave it to me. I found in on the wall of a college today. <3

She was a really great teacher and this little quote means so much to me.

Today was beautiful, it was warm and windy and sunny :) Addison and I went on a two mile walk at the park today and just talked and laughed<3 It was a blast! And then we went to go see The Hunger Games! This was his third time seeing it, but my first! It was soooo good! We had a really good time tonight! I love how much we laugh when we are together :) It is my favorite thing about being with him. We never stop laughing<3

Photo Shoot April 2012

Here are some of my favorite shots from the photo shoot I had a couple weeks ago :)

Should you be practicing right now?

     I woke up this morning and wrote half of a song! It has been awhile since I have written anything because I have been so busy with the album and classes and school. It felt good. <3 This is my life you guys, how ridiculous is that?!

     My mom wants to have a garage sale next weekend, I decided that I would sit out in the front and play some of my songs and have a tip jar or something out. It will be kind of the first time I have given my music out to the world. I'm excited and nervous as can be! I might try to learn a couple covers to play too...hopefully that goes well!

The New Drama Room :)

Jelena, Kassie, Alex, Me<3

In the new Drama room:)

 The New Drama Room Stage :)

 Kassie, Andrew, Alex, Me, Jelena<3

In the make up room :)

 The Drama Room Stage :)

2nd place OMTA Senior Auditions :)

Perfect :)

I cannot tell you how perfect yesterday was! After school, Sabrina, Kayla, Jelena and I all hung out. We walked around at the park for awhile and then went to Carino's for dinner....which was amazing and delicious! We danced in my car to "We are young"(by Fun.), and Bruno Mars and got laughed at by people driving by! We went to Braums for ice cream after dinner and had a blast!! Then after I took everyone home, Sabrina come over to my house and we were just hanging out and then Addison called me to tell me about a Hellogoodbye concert that was FREE at OU! So we decided we would go! So his brother Nicholas drove and we got there....only to realize that the concert has JUST ENDED! We were all very sad people! Haha! So Nicholas dropped me Sabrina and Addi back at my house and the three of us went to go pick up the movie Across the Universe from Addi's house and watched it in my living room :) Sabrina ended up falling asleep, and I kept shoving popcorn in Addison's mouth! opps ;) The movie was reallllyyyy long though at ended at like 2:00 in the morning and we were both kind of dozing off every now and then. So I took him home and came back and Sabrina and I moved to my room for sleepy time!

It was one of the most fun days I have had in a REALLY long time! It was perfect and I'm so so glad that I have these people in my life :)

We played in the rain in the parking lot of Starbucks :) 

I miss St.Louis

I'm spending the rest of the night on music<3 

Random Pictures taken in April2012:)

Jelena, Kassie, Me, Andrew<3

Drama Class!

Jelena, Kassie, Me, Andrew<3

Drama Class!

Jelena, Kassie, Me, Andrew<3

Tongues! :P

Jelena, Kassie, Me, Andrew<3

Jelena, Kassie, Me, Andrew<3

Funny Faces! 

Kayla, Jelena, Me<3

Lunch with my bros :) 

Alex, Me, Jelena, Kassie<3

Running around during drama working on Music videos for class!

Me and Jelena<3

I love her :)

Sabrina and Me<3

Soul mates Obviously! 

Alex and Me<3

Drama Class Madness :)

Photoshoot:)

This is a picture from yesterday after my photo shoot!

I forgot how much I enjoy doing shoots! 

The photographer asked me how long I have been modeling because he said I was really talented and good at it! 

That was definatly the confidence boost that I needed in that area. I don't have a ton of experience modeling, and so it was nice to hear from a professional that I look like I know what I'm doing. 

I hate being sick. It is terrible and all I want to do is eat a ton of Rusty's ice cream and sleep and watch movies. 

It makes me very sleepy thinking that I have to go to school tomorrow :/ 

Coconut Popsicles

School was exhausting today.
I'm not going to my lessons cause I still can't sing :(
I'm living off coconut popsicles<3
They are delicious<3

I think I'm just going to do my homework and sleep...doesn't that sound lovely?

SickSickSick

I have spent the entire day laying on the couch. I can hardly talk because my throat hurts so bad and my voice is nearly gone. All I have done all day is watch movies and do homework and sleep and eat! haha! It has been a really really reallllyyy long time since I have done that. It took me getting sick to get there and I'm okay with that. Even though I don't feel good, it was nice to have a day off.<3

Day by day

I have spent these last few weeks living just day by day. There is something gratifying about looking back on the week and knowing that I got something done.

I was talking with my mom this morning, and I don't remember how it got brought up, but we were talking about Addison and me...and It just made me realize that I love him, he is one of my best friends...even though we go through times where we don't talk much, I know that no matter what we can always pick back up where we left off. We have been through a lot together this year and learned a lot, about each other...and ourselves. I wrote the song "Be Into Me" about him. It will be number four on my Cd and I hope that one day we will both be able to look back on that time in our lives and feel good about it...because right now, that is a little hard to do.

We don't have a lot of pictures together but here is one that neither of us knew was being taken. It's from January 26, 2012. Maybe I have posted this picture on here before, I'm not really sure...but anyway, here it is again. <3

 I have had a sore throat since thursday and I had to sing SIX songs today!!! But I guess that is just what being a performer means sometimes!<3

 This is my...sixth or seventh time being at OBU for Federation! It's weird to think that!

 We made State for our Duet Sisters (from A White Christmas) <3 How exciting right?!

 We are cute kids! P.s. I drank THREE bottles of water while I was there! My throat hurts so bad!

 Hehehehe! We are cute!

This is Nicholas and we are obviously best friends!

It was his first time at Federation and he made State for Art Songs! Woot!

My ratings :

Art songs : Excellent
(Let my song fill your heart && Non Posso)
Music Theatre : Superior 
(Home && All the things you are)
Duets : Superior
(Sisters && Stepsister's Lament)


When we were finally able to leave my mom and I went to lunch at Red Lobster!<3 It was fun :)

I have had a sore throat for the last two days, and right now I can hardly talk. I have to sing six songs for Federation(a vocal/piano competition) today.

God, I'm expecting miracles today<3

This is what I wore today. 

Excuse the mess on the floor, I had to do a math project last week... :(

Today is the First week of my Dallas class! I'm so excitedd<333

:D

I got gas today all by myself without having a mental break down!

Sierra : 01
Life : 00

;)

I went to church and lunch with my sister today<3 

She likes to take pictures of people! haha!

We had a good time and I love her<3