For the longest time, I defined my happiness by how much we talked on a certain day or if you smiled at me before you left. For the longest time, I was lost. For the longest time, I didn't know who I was. There have been many sleepless nights holding my eyes open just to think about you for a few more minutes...but I was so naive to think that the things I felt had to depend on the things you felt. I was stupid to think that I couldn't define myself by the things I did, or if I smiled at someone before I left. I let you have that chapter of my life, but I think it is time for me to start a new chapter that just belongs to me. You were such a weird part of my life, but I learned more from you than anyone else. I figured out what it means to write a song that brings you back to a certain time in your life. I figured out that it is good to be honest with yourself and write about things. I learned that sharing my experience as a person, as a human, that it is important. From all the times you didn't listen to me, I found out that I have something to say. I found out that it doesn't matter if you understand my intentions or accept my apology or think I'm a good person because I know who I am...and I know who you are...or were rather and that is all that matters. I'm not making excuses for myself anymore and I'm not letting anyone define my happiness.