Wise words from Zac

"Everything is alwaaaays okay in the end. And if it's not okay, then it isn't the end."

What would I do without that kid!?

Practice was pretty good today! I basically just got to hang out with my lovely friends and explore Southmoore! Haha! Buttt I did get lost :( I am so sorry to the lovely lady I'm driving to SouthMoore, I get lost everywhere....

Grace is gone

I have had the song Grace is Gone by Dave Matthews on repeat for the last hour and a half.

<3333

Today is a busy dayyy

I have tons of homework and tons of music to work on! But to be perfectly honest, I couldn't ask for anything better. I cannot tell you how lucky I feel to be given to opportunity to pursue music as a career. :)

P.s. I will have my cover of Bluebird up next week :)

P.s. Again. I still am not completely unpacked from Orlando :o Ohh Dear! haha!

Winter Song (Cover)

Why can't every night be this good<3

I went to dinner with Addi tonight. We had a really good time<3

Back to the basics!

This is my...

I get my braces off in TWO WEEKS face! Yay!Yay!Yay!!

Jeans and Cars

So I need to start off by saying that I wear skirts and dresses most of the time. I like dressing up; it's just what I do! When I am not wearing skirts or dresses, I'm wearing skinny jeans. Today, I wore normal jeans for the first time in forever and It was the weirdest thing ever. Almost everybody I know, commented on how strange it was for me to be wearing them! (And as a side note, these jeans have SUPPPPPPPERRRR tiny pockets...like I could maybe get two quarters in there!) Anyyyyway, I learned that I don't wear normal jeans for a reason. I don't really like them.

I had to get gas in my car today. I have never had to do that before and have never done it previously. I am so glad that I have Kayla with me, or I don't know what I would have done. Gas stations stress me out. I didn't like it and never want to do it again. My car is just going to have to figure out how to get along without gas.

Pictures Pictures Pictures

Mmm, It hasn't rained like this in far too long. I absolutely love it, because I don't have to be out in it, I can just curl up and listen to it fall.

Rain gives me time to think. I have been thinking a lot about things lately and tonight it is made all the better by the rain.

Goodnight everyone<3

Have a peaceful sleep

It is raining,

and that is the most beautiful thing I know.

I had my first lesson of the semester today. It stresssseddd me out. I have SO MUCH to do! Afttter my lesson I picked up Kayla and we went to this thing at my school called "The Lion King", where a bunch of dumb boys do stupid things for the title "Lion King".

Last year Addison won, and he asked me to come again because he was hosting it. It was fun at times.....and reallllyy not fun at others! ha!

Ohh and right now, I don't think I have EVER been this hungry in my life. Do we have food in the house? No...

:(

Ohh, Hi...

So I am tired. I am frustrated. I am confused.

I am hungry. I am sleepy.

I am not wanting to go to school tomorrow!

Haha! Okayyy I'm done complaining, wasn't that lovely? No? Wellllll I'm sorry about that.

I don't know what it is about 2012, but it has been full of Starbucks. Not that I'm complaining or anything :)

Mini Adventures to the fabric store

My mom had to go to the fabric store and asked if I would drive her. So I grabbed an Avett Brothers Cd and we hit the road. It is beyond windy in Oklahoma. Like...I almost couldn't get out of my car the wind was so strong. I almost lived the life of a balloon and just floated away. Butttt that didn't happen! Ha! Anyway It is so perfect outside for a drive. I had the window rolled down and the Avett Brothers on LOUD! It was beautiful<3

Today has been good :)

I'm not entirely sure...

where we are going with this. I mean, I know exactly where I would like to go with this, but I'm just not sure if you are using the same map that I am. Do you know what you want yet? I have been waiting for quite sometime, and I'm afraid that if we don't figure this out soon, that I will be forced to say goodbye to you...and that isn't what I want..at all.

You have got to stop doing this to my heart. I don't know how much more I can take<3

This is a beautiful feeling, Darling.

I have been working on Bluebird all day and I cannot wait to finish it so that you all can hear it. I feel like I am finally making it my own and that is a beautiful thing. It is beautiful to call something yours that wasn't always yours. I will have it done by the end of this week, and it will be good. Just for you

This is absolutely stunning

This is far too perfect for words

A few pictures from AMTC

My dad and I <3

Scene read<3

On Camera<3

Commercial Runway<3

Apparently, this changes nothing.

Awesome.

Honestly

I was honest with him tonight, probably more honest than I have been with anyone for the past few months, including myself. I told him that it wasn't fair. I told him everything. And now I feel like throwing up. There is a really good chance that I might lose him now. And quite honestly that scares the crap out of me. I'm sure most of the time, I sounded like a dumb clingy idiot, but that's just how being honest sounds sometimes. Because I didn't hold anything back this time. I told him that what happened last time was wrong. He apologized. I don't really think he will do anything about it though. I think that he is too comfortable where he is, and I'm not sure he is willing to change that. I know I'm making him really uncomfortable right now though, because I'm calling him out. I know that he isn't okay with everything, just like I'm not. Nobody likes having to admit they were wrong. But you know what? Oh well. Sometimes you have to do that, sometimes you have to be wrong. And that is okay, as long as you fix it. Is he going to fix it?

I have laid it all out there, and I don't do that. I just don't. I know better, but sometimes you just have to lay it all out there, or things will never change. And I want things to change.

This is me today<3 I got home put on shorts and ate an early dinner with my family. (Since my dad works nights, we tend to eat at like 5:00 a ton of the time) Anyway, after dinner my sister asked me if I would get Starbucks for her, and of course I did not pass that up! So I put back on my clothes and drove to my favorite place<3 Pretty soon, they will all know me by name! ha!

I am super excited because I finished my make-up Chem Labs today!!! Woot! Woot! We were just doing this paper in class that I had already finished, so I just asked Mrs.Carpenter if I could do my labs. It feels good to have that done with! (and I didn't even have to do it at after school or at lunch or something! That is the best parrrtt!)

Over all though, today has been a really good day<3

Girls Night = Good Night :)

Last night I picked Kayla up and we got Starbucks and went to Chic Fil-A to do homework together and talk. We split chicken nuggets and did virtually none of our homework. It was really great to just be able to talk about things. I didn't realize how much I missed our girl time together. We went back to her house and I ended up spending the night (Pictures Later<3) We talked about boys and did our make-up and tried on clothes and danced to Maroon 5. It was much needed bestfriend time<3 We never did finish our Chemistry homework though! haha! But we stayed up late and talked and it was just really nice, ya know?

I tried keeping my hair down today...but it just did not work out very well for me. I gave up and put it up!

I'm wearing my lovely AMTC T-shirt today! I still cannot believe that SHINE is over. I am still not even entirely sure that it actually happened.

I stayed up until 4:30 in the morning talking to Addison. Somehow, I still managed to wake up at 9:00 in the morning! That is just not alright with me! like really!

I just finished one and a half of my math assignments. It feels good to be getting things out of the way! Hurray hurray hurray!!!

Been playing Bluebird all day<3 and it has been marvelous. I would miss this if I didn't have it.

Now to go and try to finish my homework so that I can do something exciting tonight! Wish me tons and tons and tons of luck and intelligent answers!

Mini adventures with Zac

I decided that I need an agenda so I can keep track of the 472938472398472937498237498237 things that I am doing! So I asked Zac if he wanted to come with me to Target so I could get one! It was fun to get out of the house with a friend for awhile, after being gone for over a week and then being sick! (btw, I am feeling a ton better today! so that is supppppper amazing) Anyyyywaayyy! I found a super cute agenda and had a good time<3

:):):)

Break Time :)

This is me taking a break from my dumb homework! :)

Today has been kind of exhausting even though I didn't really do a whole lot. I slept until about noon.(Not all the way through of course because that would just be toooo good to be true) Anyway I got up and watched SNL with my mom and sister! It was fabulous! haha! Then I got dressed and ran errands and went to startbucks! But I have spent the last few hours doing homework. I am kind of stressing out because I have so so much to do and I feel like I am not getting anything done no matter how long I work

The Chemistry of Starbucks

This is my day. While I am super excited about the Starbucks....I am not super excited about the Chem homework that I do not understand! What do you people want from me!?

So, here we go Bluebird

I decided that the first song I will cover is Bluebird by Sara Bareilles. I have been playing around with it and trying to learn it for over an hour. I didn't realize it before, but I missed my piano. Hopefully I will be able to learn it super soon, so that I can make a video and show the rest of the world :)

"I was glad at the time, that I said I was fine...but all honesty knows, I wasn't ready no."

I got these three song books today so that I can start learning a song to cover. The problems I am now facing : 1. Picking a song!! 2. I gotta stop being sickly so that I can actually sing it! 3. Finding the time to learn a new song!

I figured I could at least start learning the piano part and then when I am better I can start trying to record it and all of that jazz.

It has been awhile since I played piano, or tried to learn a new song. Lord give me strength.

Funny little thing

This is a text I just got from Christina :

" What did the ocean say to the other ocean?

Nothing, They just waved

Do you sea what I did there????

I'm shore you did!

Oh Don't be such a beach!"

Hahaha! Is that not beautiful? It totally made my life a better place.

Pump-up Playlist

1. The Future Freaks me out : Motion City Soundtrack

2. Instant Pleasure : Rufus Wainwright

3. Love Today : Mika

4. Kiwi : Maroon 5

5. Finding Something To Do : Hellogoodbye

6. You're So Damn Hot : Unknown

7. What You're Thinkin' : Transmit Now

8. I Feel Weird : Steel Train

<3

Crazy Pants and Arthur

I just needed to show you guys these pants. Sometimes when you're sick, you just have to put on some crazy pants and a cardigan and your slippers and call it good. I slept on the couch last night, partly because I was far too tired to make myself move to my room and partly because I kind of wanted to! ha! Last night all I wanted in the world was Ramon Noodles...did we have any?? NOPE! Anywayyy! I watched Arthur last night! It was pretty good, but I may or may not have cried at the end. For some reason, I love Russell Brand. I cannot explain it; that is just how it is!

I am feeling a little bit better today. So I will spend today trying to get as much of my homework done as I can. I am not terribly excited about this, but it will feel good to get some things done. Maybe I can go get some Starbucks with Sabrina later today? :)

I'm determined to make today good, no matter what!

Home again

I have been out of town for the last week (I will post the whole story about that later). I have only been back at school for three days and I have a cold. I absolutely HATE being sick. I mean, I know that nobody is terribly fond of it, but it is one of the worst things EVER to me. I feel awful and my eyes are red and watery so for the past three days, I look like I have been crying. (Which at this point wouldn't be very off point, because I feel like I'm going crazy and I'm exhausted)

I am beyond frustrated because I am trying to write this song right? I have most of the lyrics down and a melody with it for the most part. But with this song, I wanted to write it on the piano(which I have never done before) and I have found that it is freaking hard! I feel so dumb because that should be really easy, I have played piano my whole life!!! But no. That isn't how it's been and I am horribly frustrated. I just want to finish this song, and make it AMAZING. [Ohh and the guy that the song is about, we stopped talking for about a month and a half, and now he wants to be friends again. That is fine, but it is just hard. I don't want things to be like they were before because I deserve to be treated better...but I don't know if I can be friends with him without things being like that....I HATE THIS!]

Did I mention that being sick SUCKS! UGH!

Also, catching up on five days of homework is not the way I would like to spend my three day weekend...I would prefer to sleep for the next three days and do nothing but drink Starbucks and drive around listening to music(Yeah...while I'm sleeping...I don't know how that would quite work...but it would)....but instead, I will be home...doing make up work.

Every time I sneeze, I feel a piece of my soul die a little bit :(

Traveling the day away

The day is going to be spent traveling. We have to drive three hours to Dallas and then another hour to the airport. Then we we will be flying to Orlando. We are leaving at 11:00 in the morning and won't get there until 11:00 at night. It will be a long day, but "This is the day that the Lord has made".

I love traveling. It has always been something that I love. Today is the start of something though and that is a little scary to me. I know this is what I'm supposed to be doing though, and so everything else will just fall into place.

God, give me strength to have a great attitude this entire week with everyone that I come in contact to. It will be a long and tiring week. Give me the wisdom to hold my tongue and to speak only positive things to people.

Reminiscing about 2011

2011 was a pretty big year for me. I accomplished a lot and didn't let fear(or anything else for that matter) stop me from doing anything. This is an over view of my life in 2011 :

January : I was taking Monday vocal and piano lessons at OCCC. I was doing Chorus in my high school's production of Grease as well. I remember being disappointed that I didn't get a bigger part, because Grease is one of my favorite musicals, but I didn't let that stop me! I had a lot of fun with it! I was friends with a lot of people that I am not really friends with anymore and that is weird, and kind of sad to think about. But for that time in my life, they were very dear to me and I guess they still kind of are.

February : I was still taking lessons at OCCC. Although I was probably missing quite a few because I had play practice every week day from the time school got out until about eight or nine at night. We had our performances for Grease at the end of February though! Every Sunday this month I gave my next door neighbors guitar lessons. The girls were in fifth and second grade. That was a fun time too, and I also got paid about five bucks to do it!

March : This was a time of rest for me since I just got done with musical. During spring break I went to the Refuge with my youth group and we cleaned out an old church and picked up trash on the high way. I remember that it was freezing. That trip was really amazing though, God did some incredible things in our youth group. My best friend, Kayla's birthday was on the 25th too!

April : Kayla and I were in love with this gorgeous guy names Mason and went to see him in the Talent show, where he sang and melted our poor innocent hearts. I was in the Shakespeare Festival at my school, where I played Juliet in "The Complete Works of William Shakespeare Abridged". That was a lot of fun, but I had to kiss this kid Kevin(who played Romeo) and that wasn't as fun. xP I was in Federation again, and made superiors, but I didn't go to state for anything. I was okay with that though, state is REALLLYYY boring! ha!

May : I went to state in piano for OMTA!! That was a blast! I went to my school's Drama Banquet, and cried like a baby. It was so sad to see so many of my friends that were seniors leave.

June : This was a big month! I got my permit! I also went to St. Louis with my dad and auditioned for American Idol! That is something I had wanted to do my whole life! I also auditioned for AMTC and got through!

July : I was in Colorado for two weeks of July, where I rock climbed(On real mountains!) and repelled! I got to visit my aunt and just relax after that! I tried Yak for the first time (and liked it!!)

August : I went to Indiana for a few days with my dad and sister to visit my grandparents and aunts on my dad's side. It was a good trip, but kind of sad. That is probably the last time I will see my grandparents, because they are getting so old and frail. Oh and school started!

September : I started my intense training with AMTC. I was terrified before I went, but when I got there...everything was perfect. (Except...I fell off the stage! Ha! In a dress! With my guitar!!! How ridiculous!)

October : I got the lead role in my schools production of Steel Magnolias! That was so incredible!!! I spent Halloween with Zac, trick or treating and skipping through the streets.

November : Opening night was on my birthday! That was so much fun! That entire show was just a blast! I also had a little birthday party the week after. We all got in the hot tub and just had fun!

December : I spent much of December preparing for SHINE. Along with trying not to fail Chemistry.

I also wrote four songs that I am super proud of sometime though that year. I have a few others that aren't quite finished yet though.

I have spent all day packing and getting everything ready for tomorrow, which is when I leave to go to Orlando for the SHINE event. So it has been a pretty busy day, but I am super excited!! My mom isn't coming with my dad and me and so we said goodbye tonight. I may or may not have teared up a little bit. I am so thankful that I have such a supportive family by my side. They mean the world to me! :)

On another note!!!! We watched this movie today. It was soooo good! When we got done watching it I stole the movie and put it in my room! ha! Ryan Gosling is such a pretty man! Like seriously!

I have been listening to this Cd alllll day long! I bought it the other day with my friend Sabrina at BestBuy! We went there to bug my friend Zac at work and ended up buying stuff! I love Ingrid Michaelson :) This Cd is becoming one of my favorites!

2012 :)

This is me on New Years Eve~

I spent New Years Eve with Kierra for the second year in a row! We went to the movies and saw Alvin and the chipmunks. We were originally going to see the movie New Years Eve but it was sold out. :( But Alvin was super cute! Before the movie, we went to the concession stand to buy snacks. Kierra bought hers first and when I went up to the counter, the guy(who by the way was pretty cute) said something but I didn't hear him. So I just ordered a small popcorn and after he gave it to me, he didn't go towards the register at all. So I asked him if he would like me to pay for thattt. And he was like " You don't have to, I said I was going to save you some money." WHATTT! haha! So the guy at the concession stand bought me popcorn on New Years Eve, what a lovely way to start the year!

I am really excited for this year and I want to document everyday!!

The plan, is that everyday for this year, I will post something about that day. I may not be able to post something EVERYDAY but I will do what I can!