Home again

I have been out of town for the last week (I will post the whole story about that later). I have only been back at school for three days and I have a cold. I absolutely HATE being sick. I mean, I know that nobody is terribly fond of it, but it is one of the worst things EVER to me. I feel awful and my eyes are red and watery so for the past three days, I look like I have been crying. (Which at this point wouldn't be very off point, because I feel like I'm going crazy and I'm exhausted)

I am beyond frustrated because I am trying to write this song right? I have most of the lyrics down and a melody with it for the most part. But with this song, I wanted to write it on the piano(which I have never done before) and I have found that it is freaking hard! I feel so dumb because that should be really easy, I have played piano my whole life!!! But no. That isn't how it's been and I am horribly frustrated. I just want to finish this song, and make it AMAZING. [Ohh and the guy that the song is about, we stopped talking for about a month and a half, and now he wants to be friends again. That is fine, but it is just hard. I don't want things to be like they were before because I deserve to be treated better...but I don't know if I can be friends with him without things being like that....I HATE THIS!]

Did I mention that being sick SUCKS! UGH!

Also, catching up on five days of homework is not the way I would like to spend my three day weekend...I would prefer to sleep for the next three days and do nothing but drink Starbucks and drive around listening to music(Yeah...while I'm sleeping...I don't know how that would quite work...but it would)....but instead, I will be home...doing make up work.

Every time I sneeze, I feel a piece of my soul die a little bit :(