Update! :)

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Collaboration

by Kellie Powell

Kim: I wanted those moments - few and far between as they were. I wanted whatever time and affection you could give me. No matter what it cost me. I felt like you found comfort in me. And maybe I wasn't your first choice, you know? But I was glad that I was somewhere on the list. I let it happen again and again, more times than I can even count.

You wanted to keep things casual, you wanted to keep me at arm's length. You leaned on me. I cared about you so much. I can't explain it, but, I've seen the best and the worst of you... and I love you. I love the way you can tell me what I'm thinking. I love the way you tell a story, drawing me in. I love you for all the times you convinced me, with a stupid joke, or even just a look... to stop taking myself so seriously and just enjoy my life. Nothing could ever make me regret the way I feel about you. What I feel for you isn't a negative thing. It makes me better, it makes my life better. That's what I've been trying to say: That love is never wrong, even when it grows in the worst conditions, with no encouragement...

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That is the monologue I am doing for my Wednesday night class! I was so glad that I found it yesterday! The only problem is I have to have it memorized for tomorrow! So I have to spend tonight memorizing and getting a few other things ready for class tomorrow! I also have this math project that I have to do! WHEN?! Who knows...it is due friday! I am not a happy lady! This week back at school has been pretty stressful and it is only Tuesday! ha! I have so much I need to be doing. Lord give me strength!

and this is why I write songs...

" Sometimes you have something you need to say but you can't, because the words won't come out of you get scared or you feel stupid. So, if you could write a song and sing it, then you could say what you need to say nad it would be beautiful and people would listen and you wouldn't make a complete idiot out of yourself. But all of us can't be songwriters, so some of us will never be able to say what we're thinking or what we want other people to know we're thinking, so we'll never be able to get the chance to make things write again..."

- Gilmore Girls

Kayla's Birthday!

Today was my best friend's 16th Birthday! How exciting!!! We went to lunch at Ted's and then to Dave and Busters where we both won cute little giraffes<3 How fun :)

~Errands with my sister~

ALSO...I bought a new bathing suit today! Yay! Yay! Yay!

New shirt<3

Busy Day At the Mall...

Spring Break Day : Eight?

Spring Break : Day Six

So I should have written this yesterdayy....ooppps! Haha!

Yesterday, I went to Starbucks with Sabrina and we talked and ate pop corn at Target. We also saw Mrs. Toscani there but I didn't say anything to her because I still am not sure if she likes me or not...but annnnyway! I got a Vanilla Carmel frappuccino....it was the most amazing thing I have ever tasted! Yum Yum Yum!

When I got home, my mom and sister and I went to dinner. It was okay but I was in a weird mood. When we got home, I went back to Target to buy a couple things. I got a black tank top, a pair of cute tights, and a cute stripped tank top. I really wanted to buy Fight Club...I love that movie so much...but they only had it on Blueray...and I don't have blueray...so I was very upset! At like 11:30 I ran over to Zac's and he let me borrow the flashdrive he has Fight Club on! I stayed up until about 1:30 and watched most of it, but I had to get up early today so I didn't want to stay up too much later. I will finish the rest of it today and I will be happy<3

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Yesterday I fell in love with a song.

Yesterday I applied for my passport.

Yesterday I opened a bank account.

Yesterday I ate dinner with my mom and sister.

Yesterday I got Starbucks with one of my best friends.

Yesterday I got asked out on a date by Miki, our forgein exchange student from Macedonia.

Yesterday I watched half of Fight Club :)

March Mix Cd Madness

This is the mix cd I just made for my car :

As much as you lead : Lex Land

Vegas : Sara Bareilles

Solider : Ingrid Michaelson

Poison & Wine : The Civil Wars

Some Nights : Fun.

Mean : Taylor Swift

Daydreamer : Adele

Fairytale : Sara Bareilles

I'd Lie : Taylor Swift

One and Only : Adele

We Are Young : Fun.

Tip of my Tongue : The Civil Wars

Gonna Get Over You : Sara Bareilles

Falling : The Civil Wars

Locked Up : Ingrid Michaelson

King of anything : Sara Bareilles

Don't You Remember : Adele

Gravity : Sara Bareilles

This Song

I fell in love with a song today. This is it and it is beautiful and perfect. <3

Spring Break : Day Five

I woke up at about noon today. It has been pouring ever since. I love the rain, when I don't have to be out in it...when I can just sit and read and listen to it. I have stayed in my pj's all day because I don't have to be anywhere and sometimes you just need to do that. I finished reading the perks of being a wallflower a few minutes ago. I get really sad when I finish reading a beautiful book like that. At the same time though, I'm happy because I know that it will be there to read again some other rainy day.

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Today I finished reading a book.

Today I watched T.V. with my dad.

Today I made chocolate chip cookies.

Today I slept in.

P.s. Last night Aaron texted me at about 8:00 last night asking if I wanted to go to dinner. I had already eaten, but I didn't want him to have to go alone. So we went to Chili's like we did last time. He is leaving for basic in a couple months. I think he is scared to be away from home...I know I would be. He says he is excited though, but I don't know if I really believe him. After he ate we wanted to go see a movie but all the movies started at midnight. We ended up going to his house and watching I am Legend. I alway forget how much I love that movie. We had a good time and I got home at about 1:00 in the morning. Then my dad and I watched the season finale of Walking Dead! Ughh! it was so good and I cannnnoooottt wait for season three! haha!

Spring Break : Day Four

This morning I watched Something Borrowed with my mom. She made me a bagel and we laid on the couch and watched it. I liked the movie a lot. I also read some more of the perks of being a wallflower today. I'm about half way through it. I forgot how much I love reading. I haven't had time to do it in so long!

Later, I went to Target by myself because nobody could go and I was bored. It was actually really nice to be alone for awhile though. Before I left I cut a pair of old jeans into shorts. It is really humid outside and it was sprinkling a little bit the whole time. At Target I got a Chai Tea Latte at Starbucks and walked around. I ended up buying a dress and some colorful pens! I was out for about an hour. It was nice! And I got three of my favorite things....clothes, colorful pens, and Starbucks! So all in all, it was a really good day<3

Ohh P.s. Locked up by Ingrid Michaelson is one of my favorite songs. The beinging line is "I have taken a wrong turn, when will I learn...when will I learn." And I just feel like that is my life. It is really dramatic and I think I should sing it every time I get lost. If you listen to it, you will understand why. :)

Spring Break : Day Three

This morning I woke up early and drove to OCCC to work with Mr.Carrillo on songs for competition. As soon as I got done with that I went over to Jelena's house! (P.s. A new fun Serbian thing I learned today : Jelen is Deer in Serbian) Anyway!!! We went with her host mom and her host mom’s friend to see STOMP at the Civic Center. It was a lot of fun! When we got back to Jelena’s h

ouse we just chilled for a

while and then decided to go on a walk. (I have forgotten how much I love going on walks. I used to walk all the time. I would go on hour long walks at least thre

e times a week. I think the reason I stopped was because it got too cold, but now that it’s nic

e again....!) We walked for about an hour and a half! It was nice to be outside!

I was so exhausted when I got home tonight. I just laid on the couch and watched a r

omantic comedy!

haha! I watched Love and Other Drugs. It was surprisingly really good. I think the movie could have done without a lot of the nudity and stuff like that, but the story of the movie was really amazing.

Also....I bought one of these fun little chap stick things today!

Super fun :)

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Today I laughed.

Today I saw a production.

Today I watched a movie.

Today I ate ice cream.

Today I walked a lot.

Today I was thankful for my friends.

Today I was thankful for warm weather.

Today was good<3

Spring Break : Day Two

I guess today is really the first official day of spring break, but we will let that detail slide.

My mom bought me the perks of being a wallflower today. I love this book so much! I can't wait to read it again<3

I guess I'm a little emotional today...I was in my car on my way to Kayla's house and I just started crying. I think it was a combination of a lot of things but there it is. It is really humid outside and I just feel like curling up to read or watch a movie. Today I can relax. I got all the material for the album turned in before the deadline yesterday! So that is a TON of pressure off my shoulders!

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Today I hugged my mom for a really long time and thanked her for being encouraging and almost cried.

Today I bought a book.

Today I got gas all by my little lonesome.

A couple pictures from the Photo Shoot

Our Walk in the park :)

Spring Break : Day One

I went to dinner with Jelena tonight! We decided to go to Johnny Carino's! I love that place so much! Anywayyy, we got terribly lost on our way there and had to stop for directions! It was a fun little adventure though! haha! We ate more food than should ever be consumed in one sitting, and then we went to the park to walk some of it off! It was a blast! After I dropped her off, I went to Kayla's house to hang out before she leaves for Hawaii. We got Starbucks and Chick Fil-A and talked. It was good<3

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Today I ate way too much food.

Today I laughed a lot.

Today I walked in the park with Jelena.

Today I wondered where I stand in a relationship.

Today I was thankful for my best friend Kayla.

Today I sang really loud.

Today I drove with my windows down.

Today my gas light came on. :(

Today I got lost.

Today I asked for directions.

Today I found my way home.

Today I made memories.

Today brought a lot of things, and I am happy for each and everyone of them...(except my gas light thing...I just can't handle that)

Today was the perfect way to spend the start of my Spring Break. <3

P.s. 69 Days until Summer.

LoveLoveLove

Things didn't work out to put Winter Song on the album. So I spent about four hours yesterday writing a completely new song to finish the cd off. It was time well spent, I finished it and recorded it today to send to the production staff.

Also, These last couple weeks I have just been constantly reminded that love is alive all around me and that I have some really amazing people in my life that love and support me.

I made out my thank yous today for the album. I decided to include Jelena in the list of friends I thanked. I haven't really known her for that long, but she has done nothing but be completely encouraging to me with my music and It has really been something that I need. I need people to encourage me, and that is okay. It doesn't mean I don't like what I'm doing and it doesn't mean I'm bad at it. It just means that I'm human and as a human, I sometimes need people to tell me that I'm doing a good job. I'm learning to accept that I guess. I have been working really hard, and I am terribly tired and ready for Spring break. But even though I miss out on sleep and getting to hang our with friends sometimes, this, my music, is still what makes me the happiest.

Zac came over for a little while to help me with some stuff on my computer and I made him brownies for his troubles. We ended up eating brownies and fighting in the kitchen. I need people like him in my life, who are always positive.

I am so thankful for every person that I have in my life, and I am just realizing that more and more. I am so blessed. Thank you Jesus that you decide the people in my life. Thank you for giving me the best of the best<3

Mica Mala

(Meetzah Malah)

Darling in Serbian<3

Sometimes...

things don't work out how you expect them to...and that is okay. I have to write a new song tonight to finish off the album. The day is beautiful and Love is Alive<3

3:00 p.m. and 85 degrees

I haven't been home at three in the afternoon in....well about two months! haha! It is super weird but I have so much to do! It is a beautiful day outside, so maybe I will work on some homework outside a little later. This week has been super stressful and it is only Tuesday! Haha! Ughhh! But I'm happy, I really am, and that is the only thing keeping me awake right now. I am terribly tired and so ready for a break from school!

Endings

PPSD : Post Production Sadness Disorder, Anyone who has ever been in a production knows what I'm talking about. When you are in a show, you spend two or so months with the same people for four hours everyday...doing the things that you all love, acting and singing. You get to know people and sometimes thats good and sometimes it isn't but you all have this mutual respect for each other because you are all working towards the same thing. You all want to have an amazing show. During performance week the cast usually goes out to eat together after the show, and that is one of my favorite things. You get to think about all the things you have been working for, for the last two months and see how it all payed off during the performance. On the last performance, while we all circle up the seniors get to say something, this being their last performance. I told myself I wasn't going to cry, but I have gotten so close to some really amazing people this year and it is so sad to me that they are leaving. There were 17 seniors in musical this year...And every single one of them is dear to my heart. One of my best friends, Addison is graduating this year...along with my new found friend Jelena...She leaves to go back to Serbia in about 90 days. There were so many memories made during this show and I can't even explain to you how much they mean to me. I love these people to death. And I hate hate hate when things end. It is always the worst part of everything...the ending. But I am still thankful for every single second I got to spend with the cast of Willy Wonka. So my heart is a little heavy today, the final day...after striking and everything. But I wouldn't change anything about it.

Pictures from the last few days!

Can I just say, that I am the luckiest lady in the whole world. I love all these people so much! I am so blessed to have them in my life and I couldn't imagine my life without them!

Photo Shoot Preview!!

Performance Week : Day Four

The performance went great today! Afterwards, about 14 of us went to Louie's for lunch. I can not tell you how much I love my friends! Being there brought back some memories from straight play though, but new ones were made<3 I have had the wonderful opportunity to get to know some of our foreign exchange students this year and I cannot tell you how thankful I am that these lovely ladies are in my life! I love them to pieces and I will miss them terribly when they have to go back home. :( Being able to spend time with my wonderful friends is what made this musical such an amazing experience!

Wise Words from Addison

"The only way to get through something...is to actually get through it."

It may not sound super insightful...but it really made sense to me. Things are super confusing right now, but there are moments of crystal clarity. That may have been one of them.

Performance Week : Day Three

I borrowed a super cute dress from Jelena to wear today, and I must say I felt pretty darn cute and Serbian :) Haha! Tomorrow is another early morning, but I'm readdddyy!

Pictures from today!