It's a funny thing, moments like tonight. I sat in complete darkness listening to rain with a heating pad, blanket, and fan on high watching The Notebook. It was peaceful. Maybe its the fact that my family(and Kait, Scarlet, and Judy) ate lunch at the table today. Maybe it is that Addison and I are finally on speaking terms again. Maybe its that I have realized how blessed I am to have my family...but whatever it is, it is good. Sometimes you need to sit in the dark and watch a movie you have seen before and hug a pillow and lay down. Sometimes that's just what you need to do. I'm feeling better than I have since Wednesday. Things are not perfect though, but of course they aren't, this is real life after all! But things are better. I'm learning to be happy with the circumstances that I am in and be thankful for the people and things I do have in my life.