Oh, September!

Today is my parents' 28th anniversary! That is so crazy to me! Anyway, we are all going out to eat. We are going to this Italian restaurant and I could not be more excited! You know my love for pasta and bread! So, regardless of anything else, tonight will be made by the food! haha!

I woke up at about 8:30 this morning, and basically did nothing all day. It was kind of nice! I watched "the social network" (which was really interesting) and went on a short walk. It's been a good Saturday and I am so excited to have Monday and Tuesday off of school! I have my first guitar lesson with Aaron on Tuesday night, and then on Friday I am meeting with KC and David to work more on my music! This week I should be finding out the cast list for straight play and One Act and I am getting increasingly nervous! I want to play Elizabeth in Pride and Prejudice so bad! I don't even care if I don't get a part in One Act if I can get Elizabeth! 

I am excited for it to start getting cold again. That is such a weird thing for me to want, because I have always hated Winter, but regardless, I am ready for it! I want to be able to feel the cold air in my lungs and feel the tickle of a scarf on my neck. I want to drink hot Chia Tea Lattes and hot Carmel Macchiatos from Starbucks and be happy! These last few months have been really tough and I am ready to start feeling good again. I'm ready to not spend all my time thinking about the past and what could have happened or what should have happened. I want to live in the moment. I want to notice the things and people around me and feel good about it. It's hard to notice anything else with your head stuck deep in the sand. I need to breath. I am just ready to start living again! I feel like I have been on pause, or rewind. I've been living in the past and it's a really hard place to live. At first it is comforting to fall asleep thinking of all the things that aren't, but could be...but then you stop sleeping because those thoughts keep you awake. I am ready to fall asleep to something new. So this Fall, this Winter, It is a fresh start, a new beginning. And I'm ready for it.