Big Gulp and Quiet

My house smells like fish and it is loud with the TV on and the dish washer going and people talking on the phone and just...people existing. I just want to be in the car, where I can surround myself with whatever I want, with whoever I want, with silence or with loud music, with familiar places or with places I've never seen before. I'm just tired and I'm being a little over-stimulated in this house right now. I want to be sitting on the floor somewhere quiet and writing and working on songs and getting some things done. That's what I want. I need silence and I need to not feel so crazy for wanting that. At the same time, I need to be with someone, someone that will let me talk about things or not talk about things and just be okay with it. I am sick of being around myself. I need something different. I went and got a Big Gulp by myself. I sat in my car for awhile but eventually I just felt weird sitting in my car alone so I came back inside. And It still smells like fish in my house. It is making me a little bit nauseous...well that and the fact that I am drinking like six tons of Dr.Pepper right now. It is cold outside and I just want it to be warm so I can sit and watch the moon and be still for a minute. I don't ever feel like I am actually still. There is always something on my mind that I need to be doing, or always somewhere I have to be or something....there is always something. I've been moving a hundred miles a minute for quite some time now.